Development

The Breaks. We need to hit the breaks. And fast. The winds of (un)change are growling, they are shaking again even the last and thin foundations of family bounds, the last memories of true social links, the disappearing shadows of hope crumbles.

I find myself in a middle of a storm fueled by a big Nothing. Empty words, empty convictions, empty beliefs, bold accusations. We are all lying to ourselves that by voicing our void we will be protected from the next development. That is always pending.

Our queue of constant panic is fed by precise algorithms driven by greed, laziness and comfort. Social networks come before self reasoning, kids attention void or relationship deep needs. They became our true interface to the world, they are deciding our steps with pixel level precision. I am indeed addicted to this whole process and I realize that I cannot recover the true lost commodity in all this vortex, my time.

I stopped projecting the idea of investing all that lost time in old school positive incentives for mind development and I started to grasp the reality of my mediocrity.

Let’s hope it is all worth it, after all, these networks need to grow for our own benefit where, ironically, we are the product since everything seems to be “free” or allowed (unless opposing some more privileged layers in control of your redefined freedom).

As a fun experiment, I wonder how 1984 book reality would have put these networks to use within the Ministry of Truth. Perhaps on the large scale it is healthy to index global level memories / feelings / states of mind and potential fear models for the future long term – at least the statistical representations of our decay will serve perhaps the future in order to avoid such modern history trends.

I want to conclude by saying simply… I am sorry. I had a small fight in the morning with my sister and I felt the need to write something to mend – if possible – the stupidity of that discussion. About elements above our control, about the illusion of freedom of choice, all items masking perhaps my real nostalgia and home sick.

The Black Swan (2)

Flanked by the only carbon stain with fan-shaped wings in the village, the old man shattered his sick laziness and suddenly jumped into the alley to walk the true path one last time. All the newcomers had gathered around the thin gates to lead him towards the church, a tall structure much more than old, rather a broken shipwreck of stranded hearts raised around The Flood. His big eyes whispered for a new light to hide him from all the crosses that had turned into calendar sheets. “Come home, my man,” he heard from somewhere above. He had forgotten about the open gate.

In the elevator

He had entered relatively late into the most beautiful elevator in this world, her collective heart. Being devoid of any gravitational inertia, he found himself floating aimlessly. He was surprised to find that inside the darkness of the enclosing and fragile cage there were no directional buttons, only faint ideals, passively augmented through dissimulation. The horizontal movement made him jump, weighing the authenticity of the time spent in a box of eternal mercy. Our salvation will come from somewhere above he heard until his release.

Nowhere

The 30 pure silver coins were nowhere to be found. The cheap production, triggered by too much plastic and thin cardboard, betrayed itself in a crude manner. Everything seemed to be sewn with a white thread, literally. He thought opportunistically that His own betrayal had become a half-measure, played out in a small and impartial theater, pointless to the futile cause. What’s the use of suffocating myself now under the guise of a pseudo-drama? I could make a meta-cross with just 2 fingers. The third one could possibly indicate the direction of salvation or maybe the Self. Amen. Bis !

Underwater (2)

I was born from a broken water. I remember that feeling of sweet guilt, absolutely exposed to my first prank of notoriety. I didn’t really understand this forgiveness thing, I had only heard about it from my parents through waves of exaggerated compassion, directed at me, but consumed natively from their restless souls. The judgment panel invoked for the current case seemed lenient, again with a protective scent, an apparently essential attribute in this new world that kept dreaming me.

Underwater

A sea of asphalt had been suddenly displaced to cover the crack left by the blind and sovereign splitting. However, it was already late and he no longer knew, instinctively, how to clearly argue the source of their slow time, the essence of dialogue, the taming of a deaf burden of useless symbiosis, which lost its shine with each suicide. He let himself be carried away by the wave for a while, then worriedly took over the rain-hit helm to avoid the straight road home. His heart was clearly drowning in the water of life.

The Black Swan

It was raining so hard with wings that he felt suffocated for the first time. There was no longer any flying anywhere, the mirage of heights had been played on a massive shorting trend, pasteurized by a collective silence. He looked broken at the premature graves, how they rustled with the weight of black swan feathers and looked for missing bodies. It was strange that in all this December silence, some believed that there was shooting happening now and then. The bird-like angels were reigning more strictly over the shame of the new people, hunted by freedom.

If

If I could transpose my ignorant heart
back towards your sweet frequency pod of unconditional joy,
I would find you again beating inside me,
making me a better instance of forgiveness and understanding.

If I could cheat on my singleton mind to dissolve itself
in a deep sea of retrospective choices,
I would choose above me to reach your uncomplicated sky,
I would force myself to purely adapt to this new time,
while dreaming about our past.

If I could escape my every day blindness,
protected by the safest shade of pride,
I would finally manage to see you,
Gone forever.

I’ve tried

To simply look for you within the other room
of my modularly fragmented heart,
From this ancient puzzle, without straight edges,
My time of false expectations is crumbling,
My negligence is overflowing,
Drowning any blind resolution
for a silent rehabilitation.

dream

The last empty seconds of a year diluted by your absence,
The latest resolutions without real impact,
The last thought of deaf anxiety,
The last fairy image of your last cigarette extinguished in my heart,
That last anchor thrown in a sea of ​​questions.